♥ Juliette

2011-01-04T23:38:00.002+08:00

it's 2011 now.

left this space untouched for a long long period of time.

many things happened.

life's been good now. and it'd remain that way.... or better.

2010-08-01T22:39:00.002+08:00

Not once, nor twice. Hurt? I'm not so sure..

Fcuk! It pisses me off to the max!!!

Fcuk genes.

Fcuk bloodlines.

FCUK EVERYTHING!!!!

2010-05-06T01:11:00.002+08:00

awesome, i lost my painkillers and not living with it anymore.

2010-05-02T23:54:00.002+08:00

I'll work hard to be nicer.

I'll try to be more friendlier.

I'll try to smile more.

I am lucky. Kind of.

2010-04-12T22:54:00.002+08:00

Completely brainwashed that I couldnt do anything about it.

Yada yada yada . . .

Essays are piling.

& I have to finish up the book by 1 week before the month end.

Seriously, I couldnt cope.

I want to give up. On the verge to.

Luck. Why is my luck so . . .

Honestly, Im jealous, angry etc.

I work my ass off to the extent I almost loose my mind yet . . .

God mustve hate me.

Life is so unfair. UNFAIR!

I am not complaining because I'm ungrateful.

I really want to move out of this cycle.

2010-04-03T20:43:00.000+08:00

That day will come.
For good

2010-04-03T15:19:00.000+08:00

I MUST WIN THIS. DEFINITELY HAVE TO.
I have come this far and I don't want everything to go down the drain.

You deserve no respect from me.
What a joke! Being so bitchy just because of handshake.
My fcuking problem uh whther I want to or not.
Seriously, pls reflect and swear that u're an angel who don't gossip and tell tale.
From my agnostic point of view and what I heard from the religious figure,you don't have to shake hand with the opposite side who has no blood ties. Just fcuking remove that headscraf if its just for "oh I'm fcuking religious and I have a place in paradise"
What, going ard telling ppl my family lack of manners? Hmmm, I wonder who's daugther had a child out of wedlock and who died from drug overdose and left their parents to clear their shit!!

Okay, I shall face the music when father come home because of this lame shit. Hahahha.
I had enough of humiliation and whatever crap. Whatever goes in will akways go out.

2010-03-20T09:13:00.001+08:00

Cried wolf

2010-03-19T22:02:00.002+08:00

10:00pm 19 March, Friday

I received a call. A heartbreaking news.

I dont know. I dont know how to react.

I knew something was not right since a few days ago.

Seeing you like you've lost your mind.

I grew up running in circles without any guidance.

I never receive love or warmth from you.

Everyday I blamed God. Everyday I hated life.
Nobody knows how offended I feel when they asked me about my personal life.

You fail as a person. You fail as someone I could rely on. As a whole, you're a failure and I promised myself not to be like you.

It's just a matter of time.

Nothing last forever...

2010-03-10T00:21:00.002+08:00

totally lvoe the night breeze.

maybe i should make night walk a necessity. like food & oxygen.

cant wait for May.

nervous yet excited.

drawing near.

2010-03-08T02:18:00.001+08:00

3-12

break free.

au revoir~

2010-03-06T19:38:00.002+08:00

I is the cause of the collapse of the wonderful fairytale.

2010-03-06T00:01:00.002+08:00

it could've been me.

that spot was meant for me.

i could only blame myself for throwing away the throne.

2010-03-04T00:48:00.002+08:00

03/03/09, Monday, 9am

How can i forget.

It's been a year.

Thank God I survived.

Surviving itself is indeed tough.

One fine day, I'll have to bid farewell. Foreal

As of now, I'll spread my wings for possibilities.

READ: POTENTIAL POSSIBILITIES

2010-02-28T22:22:00.003+08:00

when i grow up,

all i know is i dont want to be like you.

kill me. like seriously. kill me!!!

WHY DONT YOU JUST KILL ME RIGHT FROM THE BEGINNING?!!?

2010-02-27T18:38:00.002+08:00

I live for myself.

I created a name for myself.

It's because of me.

Everything made possible because of me.

Noone was there, is there or bothered to be there.

Except for God.

Secretly helping me out through these grieve.

And made me strong.

I'm sorry for hating You. For not being grateful enough.

Before the next "tsunami" hit the shore, I must be prepared.

2010-02-16T20:11:00.002+08:00

what kind of shit did i bring myself into.

fcuk my life.

2010-01-28T23:25:00.002+08:00

cant wait for 8 march.
anticipate it more than today, tomorrow and sunday..

oh oh oh oh~

2010-01-23T00:14:00.003+08:00

vanished into thin air.

and never to be heard again.

i'm sooo kind that i didn't lose my temper.

i think i've been "detached" too much that i lost all my emotions.

bad.. or good?

nearing feb!

2010-01-18T20:55:00.002+08:00

what should i do?
i cant give it up.

fcuk you! fcuk youuuu!

reasons behind all these?

still in the circle. when life's been smooth sailing, until..
everyone loves it when i collapse.

2010-01-15T07:30:00.000+08:00

Les Trompe L’oeil de Chanel
to die for.

2010-01-09T15:24:00.002+08:00

It has been a week.
Life's been pretty smooth sailing except for the money part. hahah.
For now I shall give my best. And live positively.

Anyway, I miss ice skating. It's been awhile since the last time I skated.

2009-12-28T22:58:00.002+08:00

like, fcuking serious?!!
no, i must not be distracted. i must not spend unnecessarily.
i must concentrate on my studies. i shant skip school unnecessarily..

some people should just accept the fact than lying and forcing something that's impossible. greed leads you nowhere. you can avoid mistake but mistake cant avoid you.

2009-12-24T20:52:00.001+08:00

peanuts. and i couldnt care less.

freezing eventhough it's not snowing,

2009-12-20T23:33:00.003+08:00

life is SO unfair.

poor people have overflowing happiness.
rich people have overflowing money.
while I have nothing.

2009-12-18T21:43:00.003+08:00

until when?

9.45pm, yet to eat dinner. im dead. like seriously.
my healthy lifestyle plan is not going well.

2009-12-15T23:13:00.003+08:00

omfg omfgodddd!!! i think this week is so cursed!

yesterday i had to bear for XXhours wearing super stinky shirt that i got pissed. honestly, i dont know what the eff my mum did that our laundry is effing smelly like garbage. its not like we cant afford softener or whatever it is called.
then i was scolded by a dumblonde (obviously angmoh) for being helpful. what the fcuk! i should just ignore and keep quiet next time when some asshole ask for help.

just now at the salon, i "huh!?" so loud cause i misheard the stylist called my name that everyone turned and looked at me.
shopped at xx and asked for my change cause i thought the sales assistant forgot about it when actually he have problem with the cashbox. i was so humiliated that i feel like burying my head in the toilet bowl. i think he think im cheapskate. lol. but it's not few cents of course i want my change. omg, so embarassing!!
then we were looking for a shop and i remembered the directory was touch screen. i mistook this iphone advertisement mural for that touch screen directory and i stupidly touch on it. luckily i pressed it once or i'd look like a fool!!!

omg, i really really really hate to be humiliated!!

on a brighter note, my hair condition is improving.
and i THINK i saw xx. i am quite positive it was him cause when we walk past, he turned his head and it was like so obvious he ignored me. it's been 10 months, 10 months!

as im typing this, i couldnt construct decent english sentence.
my mind is so messed up.

2009-12-10T21:34:00.004+08:00

so here i am not at the airport but chilling at home.
saved probably around 300$ or more. (:
but the horror of tomorrow! guess i'll have to eat home tapao-ed food for lunch.
maybe i should convert into a vegan.

ohoh! the taiga collection is freaking gorgeous! wait till the jaw dropping prices to be announce officially.

. . .
stare blankly at the screen

2009-12-09T21:50:00.002+08:00

Still searching.
Still walking in circles.

C'est la vie.

2009-12-04T10:07:00.002+08:00

everything you want to happen, will happen, if you decide you want it bad enough.

i bought gazillion cartons of fruit juice that now im feeling hungry.
living alone sucks when nobody cook for you.

2009-12-01T11:04:00.002+08:00

hasnt lose it's glow, yet.

10 days left. why am i still contemplating?
the biggest and heaviest sacrifice i'll be making in my entire life.
it's like.. a strand of hair divided into seven and you've to walk along it and it determines whether you safely arrive to heaven or drop to hell while struggling.

life is so unpredictable.
only God know what's in store for you. but, cant I change my fate?
i cant play along with these foul games.
okay, this is getting boring..

2009-11-27T15:25:00.003+08:00

blood shot eyes, heavy eyebags and sore throat...like I'm on drugs.

today till Sunday gonna be busy clearing up the wardobe.. and the room.
gonna register for the school next week and book an appointment for a new hairstyle.
jotting down the buylist etc etc.

im ready for new year.
a new person, a new experience.. just, everything will be new!

my handphone split open again and its contents were scattered everywhere.
seriously, it so embarrassing.
time for a new handphone. yeah right, told myself to get a new one but too lazy to get one cause i just dont find any use of it. but! im very sure this time i'll get bb bold 9700 when it arrives! luckily i didnt buy the storm. impulsive buy = regret. hohoho.
another reason im looking forward to new year.

2009-11-26T07:32:00.004+08:00

Agnes B LSME Camera is just SGD55?!!?
WHUUUUTTTT??!!!!
IT'S WAY CHEAPER THAN MY DIANA!!

urgh, forget it, im getting eos 7d anyway.. or maybe leica? eventhough i am more to lomo.

Another sleepless night and rewatching an American series. I cant believe I've taken an interest in ang moh drama.

2009-11-25T11:25:00.002+08:00

No definite answer to my questions, but a definite decision that'll lead me somewhere..
Be it a wrong or right move.

I ~~want~~ need this so much, badly!
I hope this is a golden ticket to paradise. But if only I made it.
I can make it happen.. right? right? right?
I sacrificed my sweat and blood, time and everything else for this.
I never worked so hard in my life for this. If I failed, everything that I sacrificed is as good as throwing away a diamond into the sea.
And the humiliation that I faced would never be forgiven.

Almost going to ring that woman but I received it, like finally!
6 more days to December. Many things to do. And I'm pretty excited for December to comeeeeeeeeee (:

2009-11-24T13:12:00.001+08:00

that bitch still hasnt give what i deserve.
i'm still me, nothing's changed... maybe alittle.

2009-11-06T07:56:00.002+08:00

The first day of my "changing point" start with a ginormous disaster.
It's quite worrying since there's always a ginormous burden who'll always block my path.

I'm quite convinced that I am actually smart. To say these kind of things about myself coming from my own mouth is quite embarassing but.. that's the fact! Hah!

I was locked out of my house for maybe almost an hour because some human whose brain must've been exchanged with a pig used the padlock to lock the gate which most of the time we don't even use it.
I didnt bring my handphone, nor do I bring cash. My neighbour couldnt help me too.

So lazy to type any further. But anyway, I'm glad I'm already in my house without any help from these worthless human beings.
But, I've always been doing everything myself and I've been surviving alone.
Even if I'm stranded in the jungle, I think, I can survive. =P

2009-10-28T10:21:00.002+08:00

Goodness! I was almost being discovered!
Nobody should know. The identity that I've been hiding for so long should just remain this way.
This is what I want, I've achieved it.

But I'm still far from my goals.
No, I'm not going to think of the future that'll ruin my esteem.
Life's better this way.
No God, family, friends, finance that'll interfere my emotions.
Think positively, live positively...

"What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.

-Ralph Waldo Emerson"

2009-10-27T21:28:00.002+08:00

I should be like the autumn leaves..

2009-10-23T11:06:00.002+08:00

continuosly falling to the ground is very easy.
i wish i can end my life here... if it guarantees me a place in heaven.
HA! FAT HOPE!

2009-10-20T10:44:00.002+08:00

Never put your hopes too high.

I will not sympathize handicapped person anymore. I know not everyone are bad but I came across a bunch of rude and two-faced handicaps.
My hatred for foreigners who dream of becoming a PR just grew bigger and bigger. Especially those from third world countries. These stupid migrants dont have a place here but too bad the government love those idiots more than the locals.
Seriously, Singapore's standard just drop drastically. This place is like third world low class beggar town.

My life was crushed by these 2 fcukers. I hope their life is a brand new hell everyday.

2009-10-15T20:22:00.003+08:00

I'm standing in the middle of the crossroads and not budging.
I'm afraid to make the wrong move. A mistake that I'd regret for my entire life.
I wish there's some hint leading to the right path..
Please make me feel that I've not wasted my life for nothing.

2009-10-06T15:08:00.001+08:00

no direction in life.
never been happier.

2009-09-20T08:39:00.002+08:00

my body's gonna blow up pretty soon, i swear.
urgh!! seriously, why is everything so slowwwwwwwww!!!!!
so stress ah so stresssssssssss.
no wonder im balding.

2009-09-19T12:53:00.004+08:00

when i need help, nobody was there.. to even listen.
but when it's unnecessary, they're there.
fcuk youuuuuu.

oh well, that's the job of a busybody.
is their body really that busy?

hate special occasions.
is there anything else that i dont hate?

2009-09-10T00:42:00.002+08:00

I fully understand.
Loneliness, uncertainties and having noone to be that shoulder to cry on.

Maybe moving back is the best choice..

But I really dont want to stay here. . .

2009-08-22T06:49:00.000+08:00

i wont pretend to "earn points".
i'll do things with sincerity.
i dont get why people acting holy for this particular month only, but not for the rest of the months.

thurs would be my biggest challenge ever.

oh well, life's never been smooth anyway.
why fret?

2009-08-10T23:52:00.002+08:00

I'm trying to fix my attitude problem but my surrounding just made it worse.
I fell again today.
And someone, or rather everyone made me feel I'm a worthless creature in this effed up Earth.
I dont know what I promised God before I was born but I know, it was a mistake to be born.

Anyway,
butterfly's preview is slow and mellow. Totally looking forward to it.
Aromatherapy + soothing music = AWESOMEEEEE!

Hopefully my blood pressure wont rise later. Im sick of being sick by sickening people.

2009-08-04T17:41:00.000+08:00

Thankfully nothing's broken.
The pain is still there but bearable.
I could've been dead or in coma now.
Thank you God for giving me a chance to continue living despite I hate this Earth so much.

Feeling: grateful (:

2009-08-02T17:53:00.000+08:00

Not feeling any better.
Doctors arent geniuses.

2009-07-21T08:08:00.002+08:00

Blogger post is freaking weird now.

My phone is partially spoilt. Perfect time to get the blackberry storm but what the fcuk, no WiFi!!?! )':

I'll be feeding on grass real soon. Showcase after showcase.

2009-07-16T20:59:00.002+08:00

♪ I Hope - FT Island

Hold my hand and guide me to the right path.

2009-07-15T07:23:00.002+08:00

♪ Hot Issue - 4minute

Tossing and turning.
I am exhausted.
Flashbacks. I hate it, I hate it so much that I chocked myself with the pillow and wished that I lost my memory permanently.

♪ Time is ticking. Time is ticking away.. ♪ Epik High - One

2009-07-10T22:28:00.002+08:00

♪ In The Club - 2ne1

My space is intruded.

3 more months..

2009-07-09T08:43:00.002+08:00

♪ Thinking Of You - Katy Perry

Oh shut up woman!
Some people just don't know how to be grateful. *roll eyes*

I am not prepared to leave.
But time is ticking....
ticking so fast that I felt life is shorten with every breathe I take...

what should i do..?

2009-07-07T19:20:00.003+08:00

♪ Romeo Juliette - SHINee

If I've known, I should've brought the dslr.
Why did I take such risk? Why why why?

:'(

Seriously, I want to smash it. Of all the frames, only 3, the worst of the worst processed?!!?
However, I'm pleased with fuji sensia's color.
But I cant get over the fact that the pictures I took of the day I "stalked" ft till the gig is blank!!

Ahhh, memories whatever!!

2009-07-04T22:51:00.006+08:00

♪ tell me your wish - snsd

Genie, genie, genie.
If only it exist, I wouldn't be in this state.

2009-07-01T21:34:00.007+08:00

♪ i dont care - 2ne1

From now on I really don't care.

2009-05-22T23:59:00.000+08:00

2009-04-23T21:38:00.000+08:00

2009-04-19T13:04:00.008+08:00

A week late but anyways, I'm glad I enjoyed the time spent with the girls which I've not met for like 3months or so. Our outings have never been disappointing with all the drama mamas. LOL!
Time flew so fast that I missed out alot of things.
Our next outing will be at Yew Tee upgraded market?!? Hahahahaha.
I wanna eat sushi! Eventhough I had it yesterday.

It's mid of April. So fasssstttt!

2009-02-28T23:59:00.001+08:00

Awesomest qween belated birthday cum gathering.
My feet still hurts from wearing 9cm oxford heels walking around like crazy just to find a place.
And we attracted people's attention when the girls tried on my heels. ZOMG prz!
lol.

2009-02-27T21:54:00.002+08:00

OMG, I feel like crying now. Seriously.
Just received a call from KW just to thank me.
I thought it was sweet.. when I should be the one thanking him for taking care of me all these while.

Six months passed in a blink of an eye.
I'll miss everyone.

2009-02-14T21:25:00.005+08:00

My white day was well spent with the SHINeeSG girls and Lin&Asya.

Dined at BBQ chicken with half of the girls and had to go off after that.
Ate pat bing soo! I got sick eating that actually. =P
Their mushroom soup is yummy!! (better than pizza hut and swensens) I'll make sure to order that the next time I dine there.
Kinda regret not ordering the usual sandwich I always eat.

Lin, Asya and I went for shopping spree after that.
And I got roses from F21. :D
Received samples and gifts from TheFaceShop.
And TheBodyShop.
Oh! And ice cream!
Am very happy, of course! Instead of getting presents from boys, I got extra things from spending things for myself. Hahaha. (sound so pathetic)
Not forgetting presents I got from my girls!

Blahblahs.
Dined at Ramen Ten after that.

Last Thurs went for makeover with Jiaqi & Amy at Isetan.
The makeover was abit too extreme for me.
I had something on after that and many people were surprised with my makeover.
EMBARASSING!!
Not used to putting on makeup and I look like a bitchy tranny!!

Okay, off to mug. (hopefully!)

2009-01-01T13:32:00.002+08:00

I'm so awesome like that. Hahahahaha.

I must start polishing my broken Inggeres.

2008-12-20T13:59:00.000+08:00

'A person who never made a mistake never tried anything new'

-Albert Einstein

Could not forget all the mishap that happened to me yet.

Especially when it involve my future.

I shant type any further.

Hopefully I'll turn into a new leaf by 010109.

At least I have some happy memories.. before this year ends.... which is 11days more.

12/12

17/12

2008-12-11T05:42:00.002+08:00

Why am I having bad feelings?
Will another disaster happen again?

I tried to put that matter aside but it just keep bugging me.
I feel that I could flare up anytime.. Like a time bomb, just waiting for the right moment and.. "BOOM!"

I hope nothing happen later. Or it'll just affect tomorrow, the day that I've be looking forward.
And of course, my efforts will be in vain.

I wont be silly to resort to self-mutilation, I promise. Eventhough I am tempted to as I couldnt take the pressure anymore.
I hadnt shed a tear too.
Yes, I am strong. (self-praising) ;)
And I'll try to learn to appreciate and love life more, hopefully.
And accepting the fate... as much as I dont quite believe in it.
Congratulations God, you've succeeded in twisting my fate eversince 2006. -applause and confettis-

I am a fool. F-O-O-L!! get it?

2008-11-06T01:00:00.000+08:00

OMG!!! NICKHUN MADE EYE CONTACT WITH ME!!! I SWEAR OKAY!!!
So basically, I wasted my precious time just to see them off.
I was super near to 2PM except the damn "wood" seperate us but there were those "holes" that make it easier to see and even reach out hand over okay.
I FEEL DAMN REGRET FOR NOT BRINGING ALONG MY CAM OR TAKE IT FROM AISYAH!! wtf.

Kevin was so cuteeeee!~ Some people started to sing U-Kiss song and he join singing along too!!!
He seem the most humble & sincere member.
I have alot to blog but too lazy to type even further.... i think i'm emotionless.
I dont feel damn high or anything. Hahahah.
And partially because I'm moving away from this "Kpop world"..

Didnt stay with the rest for Wonder Girls and manage to catch the last train and meet up with Aisyah. Hohoho.

I feel damn exhausted from running all over the place and tip toeing.

Anyway, went for Jewelry fansign in the afternoon.
Park Jung Ah look like a doll!!! And they look different in real life than in picture.
So yeah, got all their signatures too.

I NEED A LONG HOLIDAY.
I HAVE TO THINK ABOUT MY LIFE.

sigh!

2008-11-05T03:00:00.004+08:00

As expected, reach home in the wee hours.
I swear I won't go out this weekends since everyday I went home late and I didnt stay home last weekends too.
I need rest!!! very badly.

Been oversleeping almost everyday & skipped morning lecture. Hoho.
I know I should sleep now but I just have to update.. (I bet those Sporeans who went for the concert blog abt this too. boo~)
Still have truckloads of pics and stories from last week but anyway, since it's already past, I wont blog about it.

4 Nov 2008 - Kpop Concert
Not really looking forward to it since I got terrace but turn out to be quite an okay seat. ~~Not too far~~actually damn far since i cant see their faces clearly on stage and not too on the side, almost centre.
Actually it was quite a bad day since I woke up feeling moody, the weather sucks and too many to list down.

Wasnt really concentrating on the performance as 99.9% of the time, I was fiddling with the dslr and changing lens. I'm one of those retards to bring a telezoom. (step reporter) And the picture didnt turn out that HD!! wtf. (okay, understandable since i sucks at photography & the place i was sitting from is damn far to see the artist face clearly.)
my arms are sore now.. so does my body.
And some creature kept knocking my head with that "pompom" thing!! wth! i feel like taking that and smack them upside down.

okok, this post sound like a complain rather than spazzing over the concert.

The MCs are Park Jung Ah, Andy and not sure who.
First performance was Junjin. Then Chaeyeon. Then Jewelry. Then I'm not sure who.. local artist.. Then KIM JONG WOOK!!! <333 href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_uzylSShvMnQ/SRDYh2EaqHI/AAAAAAAAAdg/EODgao3uXiw/s1600-h/041108KpopConcert+002.jpg">

Phew~ At last uploaded. wth, took me almost 1hr just to upload these few pictures.
Okok, I'm 2PM bias.
First few performing artist not uploaded since I didnt put on the telezoom lens = see nothing.

2008-10-30T11:13:00.006+08:00

I wish God would appear in front of me.

God = the King
me = the slave
life = drama

I dont understand why I'm created & born in the first place.

Maybe I should feel lucky.
I have parents who doesnt interupt my life and put up with my behavior.
Siblings who doesnt annoy me.
Friends who are very nice to me.
No financial problems to deal with.
Proper clothes and meals.

2008-10-18T23:44:00.003+08:00

Outing at Swensens. 11 people turned up!
wokays, I dont know what to blog.

I'm freaking broke now. I think I broke the record of spending 200++ in just a week. What the fcukkkkkkkk.
I realise I spend on food more. Arghhhh~

I shall hide my money now.

I'm falling for you & I wish you'll fall for me too... hehehe

2008-10-15T23:27:00.002+08:00

Okay, I got the ticket to Kpop concert! Dont know whether I should feel happy cause I got the suckiest seat ever!!! Ok, I shall be grateful that at least I get the ticket and it's cheap, so I cant expect more..
And now, I dont know what I should do with the products that I bought.

2008-10-10T23:46:00.000+08:00

Belated birthday surprise for Lin and had another surprise for advance birthday surprise for Mas! :D

I was so stress planning everything but thankfully it was a success.

It was a Hari Raya outing but I'm the only odd one not wearing traditional costume... cause I'm special! Hehs.

I had a great time! :D

I was so eggcited when I got to know some Kpop artist coming here.
Butt.. wtf? Lucky draw?!
Sucks man!

2008-10-06T23:42:00.001+08:00

On cloud nine! :D
Wheeeeee~

~~Like I'm so rich like that.~~ HAHAHA!

2008-10-03T23:59:00.002+08:00

I was so excited that I forgot what I want to update.
There's quite a number of pleasant thing happened to me. Hehehe. (;
But there's something that upset me too.
Mmmkay, whateverrrr!!

Sha's gonna love me more than the rest. HAHAHAH! :P
SURPRISEEE SHA!!! YOU ACTUALLY BELIEVE SOMETHING BAD HAPPENED IN MY BLOG DONT YOU!?! HAHHAHAHAHA!!

Gahhhh! This is so unfair.
I ordered something else before this double deal ages ago but it take ages to ship. What the..
My hands are so itchy to kaypoh & see what's inside but this arent my property.

2008-10-01T10:29:00.004+08:00

I tried to change but I cant.
I dont know how it happen but it just happen.

I feel abit pressurize.

Anyway, on a brighter note, yesterday night I came across someone I know blog.
Hahah, I've so much free time blogging than doing my assignment which is due tmr!!! -die-
It's quite pityful how (s)he live he(r) life. Okay, why should I bother when (s)he prefer to live life that way. I cracked up so badly that I'm tickling myself when most of the post (s)he talk about wanting to get married!!! (sounds more like a despo) HAHAHA!! wth. No stable job, one of them is lowly educated and obviously both are teenagers. I shant continue any further or I'll be a dead meat. But I pity the parents the most.
If that make that person happy, then I'm happy for them too.

2008-09-23T18:53:00.002+08:00

I'm going crazy.
I THINK I did something wrong and if I do, I'll be in deep shit.
Hopefully nothing happen.
Dear God, please help me!!!!! I BEG YOU!

I tried to recall but to no avail.
SIGHHHHHHH

2008-09-15T13:26:00.002+08:00

Oh my God.
I fell just now and it's really embarassing.
Obviously the people behind witness it and the people in front turned as they heard me screamed. LOL!

Anyway, that Daniel Theyagu kept "picking" on me.
It's not like I'm disturbing the class.
Law's quite interesting except taking down notes.
And also I freaking waste a big sum of money just to print that workbk. Wtfreak.

2008-09-13T19:26:00.002+08:00

Predicting whether I'll get scolded or not later.

Hmm.. hmm... hmm....

I know it's going to be tough but I'll persevere..

2008-08-31T01:05:00.003+08:00

I'm so pissed off!!!

EVERYTHING in my lap is gone. From pictures to videos. T_T
All my pictures is not stored anywhere but here and everything is lost. SIGH!

Nevermind, nothing last long.
So does my ~~precious~~ memories.

I'm in hot soup.
Havent started on any topic.
I'm always like that. BOO~

2008-08-29T00:40:00.001+08:00

Just reached home but I dont know why I've the will to blog.

The dinner was quite boring.
I shouldnt have attended. Hahaha.
But it's okay.
Too bad I didnt take any photo.
& I just lose interest in taking pictures.
I was quite an oddball just now. Hahah.

Oh! I met Yunna just now.
Omg, couldnt believe she could still remember me.
Last time we never talk but just now we walk past each other but dont know how come both of us stop and turn back and greet each other. LOL!
She's so cute! She reminds me of my guides' junior, Heather. She look almost like her.
Sadly she's going back to Japan soon as she was sent from Ferris Woman to come here for some study or whatever.

Ok bye!

2008-08-26T23:59:00.001+08:00

Hahahah. I find it funny when the kids call me "teacher".
I dont know why I waste my time coaching skate at Northland Primary for free (yes, for free! no pay. i know some ppl say I so stupid. but im not money-faced lorrr :P) when I'm supposed to mug for my exams.
But it's a good experience. And it'll be my first and last. Hahahahah.

I always find kids annoying but the group that I taught were so adorable! They kept on "clinging" onto me. And they greeted me only instead of the other instructors. LOL!

I dont know why I waste my life with unnecessary stuff. LOL!

2008-08-22T23:41:00.001+08:00

Hahaha! I cant stop laughing at my own silliness.

F: You stay around here?
(I turn behind and look around)
Me: Err.. You talking to me?
F: Duh! Eh, you dont remember me? You from XXXX right?
And I just realise I know him when almost everyday we see each other. LOL.

Anyway, whats up with some people sleeping in playgroud? Tsk tsk tsk... Kesian, takde rumah..
Friday night just sucks.
Got alot of weird creature hanging around..

2008-08-18T23:03:00.001+08:00

The changing point.

I felt a tint of regret.
Sigh!
Whatever.
I just have to accept it since I was the one who made the decision.
Like it or not, I've to bear with it.

Life is all about changing and adapting.

I wonder if this little secret of mine can be hide for long. Hahah.

2008-08-13T23:59:00.002+08:00

D:
The ticket presale is less than 48hours but I cant go SMTown Live in Bangkok because firstly, only few people can go, secondly because of safety reason and thirdly it's during my exam period!!!
I even planned with my overseas friend about meeting up and stuffs but oh well, it's okay, I'm still positive about it. :D

I dont know whether I'm looking forward to this Monday.

Let's not think far.
I've not even started on my assignment!! Wtf!!
I should bang my head against the wall.

Ah! Look at the time. I'm so dead.

2008-08-13T01:38:00.001+08:00

Patience is a virtue.
Maybe it is worth waiting.
Thank you God.

However, big headache to make a definite decision.
I dont know which to choose.
Too much.. "A"!

I want all.
But I must not be greedy.

My head hurts from too much thinking.

2008-08-09T15:43:00.002+08:00

I HATE MAKING DECISION!!!
Still have around 48hrs to think it through..
I just don't want to regret.

It's either.. grab the chance and might regret somewhere OR let go of it and regret later.

ARGHHHHHHHH~~~
I'm going crazy, I really am.

[ /EDIT ]
I read my past and personal entries, I kept complaining to be given a chance.
Now I that I'm given a chance, I have a very hard time thinking about it.
Maybe I should give it a go, chances doesnt come easy.
But I'm still having doubts.
SIGHHHHHHHHHHH~
I dont understand my inner self. Hahah.

2008-08-07T19:59:00.003+08:00

I cant stop complaining.
Grumble whine grumble whine.
Stop it lah Jannah! Hahah..

I should realise that at least I am lucky, in a way.

SIGH! I've so many things to do. But dont know which to start.. in other words, Im just plain lazy.

PBM assignments to be done.
POE test to revise.
Hangul to memorise.
RK to memorise.
Finish up doushite's piano sheet.
Finish up the cheograph.
Very stress thinking about something.

HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZ....

2008-08-05T22:56:00.000+08:00

I wish one fine day I'll cry of joy.
I want to cry hard cause I'm happy/satisfied/achieve something that I want badly.
I never had such feelings, I wish one day it'll come true.

Please give me a chance.. at least.

2008-08-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

CCKSS Food & Funfair was a total bore.
Few stalls and some performances. zZz
See alot of familiar faces but I cant remember most of their names. Hahahaha.
And I was quite "arrogant" towards people. LOLOL!
I dont know, I just felt so awkward to talk to anyone so I just ignore everyone. Haha.
And, Im not that exaggerating type of person who express their feelings that they miss their friends & scream & hug & show the whole world their drama cause my true feelings is, I simply have no feeling for anything. Hahaha.
I think, people notice my smile is not sincere. LOL.
But, whatever. I simply cant be bothered.

Ironically, I could communicate well with strangers and I dont know whats up with me that I smile and joke with them.

I regret spending my money on something.
I should've save if for my upcoming major plan.
I am so lucky that I have friends overseas. I hope, it goes well. :D

OMG!! I LOOK SO UGLY IN EVERY SHOT!!!
I HATE CAMERAS NOW. I SIMPLY HATE TAKING PHOTOS.
BUT I DONT WANNA BE A WET BLANKET........

2008-08-01T18:10:00.000+08:00

I just hope something good happen to me.

Low spirits recently.
Maybe I'm just overreacting and think too much.
Sometimes I wish I could open up to people but I just dont like the idea to ask for help and trouble other people.
To think about it, I think I've never ask for anyone's help although I'm desperate.

My upper eyelid kept on moving since few days ago and my palm was itchy yesterday.
I dont believe in this kind of thing but sometimes, those old folks tale may be true.

Anyway, just now, I almost die of embarrassment.
I was crossing the road and suddenly something heavy dropped on my head.
I was so shocked and screamed and stoned for a few second.
I bet those people in the vehicle that witness my overreacting unglam reaction must've been laughing their ass off.
And that thing that dropped on my head is bird shit!!! Wtf lah. Stupid bird.
Double embarassment.

2008-07-30T22:31:00.001+08:00

It's not that I've forgotten, but I just choose not to acknowledge. :D

*ROLL EYES*

2008-07-25T16:25:00.000+08:00

What's wrong with me?
Picking fault with a stranger..

Just now, I was alone with this 2 Malay guys.
They kept looking at me & I just hate it when people do that.
Then, one of them asked me whether Im a Malay or Chinese.
I replied them something sarcastic, gave them a smirk and rolled my eyes!!
To think back, it's really stupid and unglam to do that.
OMG, how can I be that childish!?!?

Of course I wont do that if they are super good looking, drop dead hot and cute. Hohoho.
And OMG, the one asking me have a girlish voice. I think my voice is more manlier than his. Hahahah.

I think my BM lecturer is cool. And I learn a new thing from her... POSER!!! LOL.
Maybe one of these days, I go poser-observing.
I think, my Econs lecture is a poser cause he boast about he is from Ministry of Finance, show off how rich he is blahblah.
And I dont deny that Im a poser too. Hahahah. :D

2008-07-23T19:22:00.000+08:00

I cant be too happy now.
Cause everything may change again.
And I'd get emo (hahaha) all over again.
I just wish I'd do well...

I know, this is just temporary happiness.

2008-07-19T23:50:00.000+08:00

Noraebang with 샤이니SG!
It was a last minute plan thus many people couldnt turn up, Nad have to leave early and Xin came wearing her Hwa Chong uniform. LOL.
Anyway, Me, Jolin, Zhuang, Amy, Izzati and Xin recorded "Noona Neomu Yeppo (Replay)" for CoolKTime advertisement and our singing will be aired on the radio soon. Hahaha.
And it will be played everyday. Hahaha.

Anyway, this is the first time I let people hear me singing in Korean, Japanese, Indo and Eng!! LOL.
I bet everyone's eardrums almost burst when I sing high key song. Hahaha.

Reached home pretty late and on the way walking home, I kept looking everywhere cause few days ago, my neighbour kena rob!!!
Scary okay.
My parents never call me thus I forget the time.

THE POWERFUL VOCALS!!
ADMINS

Just because I have mood to selca.

I just realised Im the only shooting star member while others are admins and mods. Hahaha

2008-07-18T18:16:00.000+08:00

Stayed up till 4am just to do that and it turn out so ugly!!!
The quality is suppose to be HQ. I GIVE UP!
The most frustrating part is, in the midst of doing it with enthusiasm, the lap appeared blue screen and shutdown. Wtf. So pissed off.
All my ideas drain just like that. Thus the crappy outcome.

I think, my bad temper is coming back. Haha.
I'll get annoyed by every single thing.
From some people blog in a very childish way (I almost wanna spam their tagboard and scold
vulgarities for being so immature. hahaha) to a dog that almost bump into me and I wanna kick the face.

Yesterday while I was eating that, I just feel, my life is like the pat bing soo.
Hmm, lazy to define but anyway ya.. Hahaha.
Silly things will always pop out from my stupid brain whenever I eat.

2008-07-16T18:36:00.000+08:00

Time check, it's 6.36pm. Havent sleep since yesterday.
It was worth it eventhough managed to cover up 5 topics last minute and able to do it.
But after I went out of the exam room, I feel so stressed cause I lose alot of marks because of the wrong step!!! Arghhh. Stupid sia. 10 marks gone just like that. Haiz, nevermind. It's my fault.
I think, Im not the only one feeling so worried and stressed. Everyone are, I think. Especially Bernice who kept quiet in the cab the whole while. Haha.
Went to Maripaz house for lunch and slack.

Okay, I shall stop blogging for now. My eyes feel very heavy.
Annyeong~

Oh crap! I look so fugly!!!

2008-07-16T00:09:00.000+08:00

Look at the time.
Few more hours to BAF but I havent touch a single topic.
Slept the whole day. Woke up at 9am plus but feel so lazy to get out of bed so sleep till 5pm. Hahaha. Of course got intervals go eat.

Guess I'll have to stay up the whole night.
Now feeling nausea.. The coffee I just consumed taste like I-dont-know-how-to-describe-it.
I very very very rare drink coffee because it sucks and give yellow teeth. Hahaha.

Okay, bye bye.

2008-07-15T20:22:00.002+08:00

:'(

Why do you create me in the first place.
Why didnt you take me away when I was a fetus.
Why do you always mess up my life.

Maybe, it's a mistake that I actually believe in you, that you really exist, listen and understand.
Where did I go wrong that Im under your wrath.
I know I couldnt live up my promises but changing takes time.
And, Im doing this all by myself, noone is there to guide me.
At least I wanted to change but you just dont give me any hope/chance.

I've endured with everything you put me through.
But some things, I just felt I dont deserve it.

I can never forget the tragedy you put me through last 2 years.
And I was all alone struggling very hard with my life.

I wonder how my parents feel if they know what I went through.

~~Sometimes, I wish Im a freethinker. Cause, I dont know whats the use of God when He is not giving me chances or helping me.~~

Maybe I should feel abit grateful.
Because at least Im not handicapped, at least I have proper meal and good living condition, at least Im not an orphan...
But I just hope, my life could be better.

2008-07-14T17:59:00.000+08:00

"Organisation structure towards reducing costs, innovation, or, expand market share" that suddenly popped out while I was eating ice kacang just now and at the same time remembered what Zahidah told me yesterday abt restaurants now are cutting dont know what cost. Hahaha. I think it's kinda hilarious she told me about that when she doesnt even learn business management while I know nothing. Shame on myself. Oh fcuk lah. I totally forgot everything during exam but started to regain my memory now. Arghhhh. Whatever. It's over. Worst come to worst, I'll just have to do supp paper. And the worst part of all, I'll have to study all over again for it. Ugh.

Anyway, just now a weird Myanmar girl sat beside me. She totally make me loose concentration because she stinks!!! I am very sensitive when it comes to hygiene eventhough Im not quite hygenic. Hehs. I am very sensitive when it comes to smell, people who sneeze without closing their mouth cause I just cant stand smell that are so bad. I think the theory about unhygenic people are anti social is so true! I always joke about I wanna wear pajamas to school and stuff and guess what?? That girl wore pyjamas!! The pants, I mean. Weirdo. Hahaha. And she kept making noises that simply pisses me off. I think, I pity that girl for not having a correction tape...cause she use scotch tape to tear her wrong answer off.. as a replace of correction tape.

Talking about hygiene, the Indian stall in my sch canteen is super unhygenic!! I can still remember the seller dig his nose so deep.. Then right, while he was digging his nose, he even dare to call me and buy food from his stall! Wtf. LOL.

I feel so sleepy now. zZzZz.. But I cant sleep because expecting an important call. Waiting is torturing. Actually, I have BAF to study and finish up the banner but Im pure lazy. My brain cant function well now. So, I shall waste my time staring at the ceiling.
I just hope and wish things turn out well. I hope I dont get disappointment which I ALWAYS AND FOREVER get. Life is so unfair.. But, if this doesnt work out, I have no one to blame but God. Hahaha. I've tried my best..And this all depends on what luck God wants to give me. I sacrificed yesterday for this.....................

2008-07-12T23:42:00.001+08:00

From where Im sitting right now, I could see the moon shining so brightly directly above me. (sort of. haha)
I want to live at the highest level, open rooftop.. Or the roof is made of glass panel..
So, if I cant sleep, I could count the stars in the sky and eventually fall asleep. zZz..
And, wouldnt it be nice that every night, I could star gaze with my husband and have a candle-lit dinner surrounded by the stars. LOLOL! Dream on Jannah. No boyfriend, yet dream of a husband. Hahahah.

Sometimes, I wish I could get married now and be a tai tai. Hohoho.

Okay, back to mugging. SIGH!